Day 1743 tired but lots of chat!

Ooooh I’m having such a wobble today.

I feel exhausted. I feel like I can hardly keep my eyes open and it’s 10.15 😆

I was up for the loo at 2.33, 4.56

I’ve also started this blog twice 😆😆 at least I’m consistent. I started it the same way both times! it’s now 3pm.

I didn’t feel great this morning. I took Freya and Bhruic out first…. stopping for all the primary school traffic, every few minutes, wrong time to walk the dogs!!

I got half way round our walk and a dog barked…. Quite aggressively…. Somewhere in front of us…. My anxiety was so high, we about turned and headed back the way we came.

I was breathless with my anxiety.

I may have caught sight of the wee sausage dog, as we walked back home!

How ridiculous is that?

I then took Calaidh and Khaleesi up the hill…

No panic up that way!

I have a doctor’s appointment at 10.30am to get my newly discovered lump checked. (Again don’t panic as I have lots of cysts so it’s most likely that).

I’m ok about it all as I’ve been through this routine many times. The doctor was lovely and said all the right things. She told me that I’d be referred as an emergency only because they can’t rule anything out. She said I would get a mammogram within a fortnight. This is exactly the procedure I’ve experienced in the past, so I am not panicked but I’m so emotional that of course I cried in the surgery… when I told her I hadn’t had a drink in 6 years…. What was that all about?

I asked if there was anything I could do to reduce the cysts that I have and she said stop smoking and drink less. ✅ ✅ ok so nothing then?!

She said it’s common in many perimenopausal women.

I decided to cheer myself up when I left and headed to Curiosity for coffee and a cake.

This cake deserves a side on photo!

It was exquisite!! Surprisingly it wasn’t too sickly. It really hit the spot.

What also helped is I bumped into my lovely friend, Evelyn, one of the crochet hookers, and coerced her to come with me!! It was her first time and she said it was the best coffee she’s ever had.

We had a great wee chat.

As we left I had a message from my friend Gayle from the little gift shop, so I popped in there and we talked for about 2 whole hours.

I’d told the puppers I would be home soon!!!

Craig called me before he went into a job AND when he came out and I was STILL in the shop!!

I left at 10.15 and was home by 1.45!!

I musta needed it!

So I had a list of things to do today but I knew I couldn’t do any of them. I feel so weary that I’m happy with my big chats and now cuddles with the dogs.

This is enough for today.

I hope you all have a lovely weekend ahead.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️