How could I forget my soberversary tonight?!?

Six whole years… I would never have thought that possible.

I am a much better person without alcohol at every turn.

I can trust myself to show up.

I can rely on myself.

I have taken back control of my every waking move.

I have to feel all the feels.

Every uncomfortable moment.

Nothing gets washed away or forgotten about.

I try not to drown these thoughts in Cadbury’s chocolate buttons anymore too!!

But I have fought against the norm in our society and done what is right for me.

I am pretty proud of that. As difficult as that can be at times.

Also disclaimer. I made a mistake in the first blog! It’s Venus that’s next to the moon tonight and Saturn is from 17.21 tomorrow night!!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It was beautiful again this morning but black ice everywhere.

I had a great sleep and could see it would be a beautiful sunrise. Claire had messaged me and suggested heading up to the dams near us.

I had a shower, got changed and headed out to the car.

Could I get in the car? Nope… the door is shut fast. The ice was like glass.

Now, on a work day I might make more of an effort, but I gave up today.

I went to take some icy sunrise pics instead.

It’s a beautiful morning. 🌅

Look at that black ice.

So back into the house and back into jammies.

I sat down and read “January” in my new Almanac.

It’s really interesting. I learned a lot about the moon, the tides, sunset and sunrise. I also learned that Saturn will slip behind the moon tonight between 17.21 and 18.30 in the UK. It will be very faint but I’m going to look for it. There will also be a chance of seeing the Quadrantids meteor shower tonight and tomorrow night.

I then started work on Donna Ashworth’s new book. Words to Live By. Click this link… it’s a great book designed to help you journal through the year.

I have chosen a word for the year.

My word is LIGHT.

I want to enjoy sunrise and sunset and any more beautiful Aurora that I get the chance to see.

I want to spend time in twinkly light or candle light when it’s dark.

I want to shine a light for people who can only see darkness.

I’d like to be lighter in my outlook.

I don’t want to be stressed and angry. I want to breathe in the light.

I don’t want to be grey, I want to be light.

You get the picture.

Now also for January, I am choosing a word for the month and that is Joy.

Now I really shudder at the word joy. For some reason I really struggle to feel joy unless I am clearing and organising or galavanting around the world.

The clearing and organising part is easy. That’s because I am taking control of mess, I can put my hand on everything as I know where it is. I can out things away when I use them as I have a registered place for them. Rather than just tidying by shoving things out of sight.

The galavanting is always obvious as I have run from all the stresses or every day life and I’m essentially on holiday. I’ve actually been quite flippant with that reply as there’s more to it than that.

I feel fulfilled. I’m excited, intrigued and stepping out of my comfort zone.

I also feel joy in my jammies either crocheting or writing the blog or watching a good show on tv.

I know it’s not possible to see joy in every minute of every day but I would like more joy in my daily life.

As Donna Ashworth often says, I run naturally dark. I get triggered by so much in the day to day. I can’t always write about that here. So even although I’m as honest as I can be on here, you still probably get the sugar coated version. You get the omissions version.

So yeah more work on Joyous January. Thanks Sally Maxted for that 😆😘

I spent the morning putting lots up for sale on Vinted.

It suddenly occurred to me that I could share my page here Rambling Sloth Shop 😆

By lunch I had sold 3 things already… albeit less than £20 in total but it’s better than giving everything away.

I have to give every sale the dog hair caveat 🤦🏻‍♀️😆 I try my best but it’s gets everywhere.

We then took Khaleesi to the vet for her painkiller injections.

Here she is back in the car patiently waiting for Craig, while he paid.

I’m not sure if it does much of a difference so we’ll use this month to decide what should happen next.

Back home by 2.30 and I de-iced the car and have re-lit the wood burning stove, and candles. I have the lovely light as the sun sets.

I’ve definitely felt out of sorts today. Maybe panic that the 17 day break is coming to an end. Stress that I’ve not done half of what I wanted to do. (I know I haven’t really stopped!!!)

So I need to be kinder to myself this evening and just rest because I am tired… and soak up that glorious light.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️