Day 1711 full of festive cheer or anxious fear?!?!

Ooooh see what I did there….. so you can guess eh?!

Mrs Anxiety raised her head this morning.

It’s been a while.

Coffee and Quotes with the calm down….

I have created so much drama already and I’m not really sure why.

It’s the last full working week at Tartan and two customers asked for an update before 8.30am and I skyrocketed. Of course I have manifested this as I have been overthinking the last week jobs.

I start with all the “it’s the last week, what could possibly go wrong”…. “Here we go and we always run out of parts on the last week, I’ll be the one holding up a van”… “let’s wait and see how many parts are missing”

These are all the thoughts that are running through my head.

I am wittering on lie a budgie or a Julie on lots of caffeine… which I wasn’t.

I can feel myself flapping. In my head my arms are flapping like one of those inflatable arm waving things….. (said no one ever!!!)

Except me… I’m sure I’ve said that before. 😆😆

Inside I was in an absolute panic that I might let everyone down.

That simple.

I was embarrassed by my flapping. Cringing that I wasn’t keeping my cool.

Laughing like a maniac and the ridiculousness of it all and probably making it worse.

Works well under pressure…. NOT.

I say that out loud.

I draw attention to what I perceive to be, my worst quality.

And yet… it’s only because I care. Because I want to do a good job.

I changed the narrative in my head.

I have all the parts.

Everything will be here on time.

I can be calm.

Works well with a clear brief. 😆 This one always makes me laugh but it’s so very, very true.

I can’t do woolly. I want to know what my job is, what my remits are, what’s expected of me and I’ll do that to the best of my abilities.

Anyway, I digress.

I am fairly certain that my positive thoughts eventually work as I’m back to normal before lunch.

I’m still cringing that it happened as it’s all in my own head.

I’d had such a great sleep and felt really calm on the way to work. A couple of triggers were enough to set it all off.

So I’ve had a lovely salad for dinner again and have my favourite jammies on chilling.

I’ve two pots of soup on the hob.

I’ve a busy week coming up.

I’m relaxing tonight.

So is Calaidh!!

And Bhruic!

This is my current view…. The beautiful Khaleesi…. 😆😬

Here’s to no self created drama tomorrow.

Stay safe everyone ♥️🫶🏼♥️