I had such a great sleep. I was out for the count until 5am when I woke up.

My mind started racing.

I didn’t want it to race.

I tried an Eckhart Tolle thing that I saw the other day. You imagine a wee mouse hole on the wall and you sit and watch it, wondering what is going to come out of it. What thought is going to come next? It clears your mind of noise and helps you focus on the present. It works to a certain extent.

I then tried reverse psychology…. Instead of “I can never get back to sleep”… “I always fall straight back to sleep”…. To be fair it really worked but I was conscious that my whole body was tense, and it began to relax.

I have to work at having a good day sometimes.

This was my little gang this morning .

I made them sit on the bed before they could get lots of hugs and kisses. You can see the excitement as they know what is coming…. Maybe not from Freya but hey…. I feel like she is saying, this is just dumb… 😆

I got them up early this morning as I was working and Holly next door was very kindly walking them and checking in on them. I wanted them to get some good time up and about before I left.

This is what life is like with dogs… from the shower…. 🫣

I really feel like I’ve bonded with them these last few weekends. Never a moments peace but it’s lovely. Check me going all dog gooey. 😆

It’s always about the tennis ball with Calaidh.

Now I’m drying my hair….

How would I cope without my wee team?!

Then I’m off to work. I hate leaving them when Criag is away but I talked them through it and I think they were ok with it. 😆

Freya said I’m sleepy mumma….

Bhru says whatcha doing?!?

And Calaidh says… that’s not my good side.

So poor Craig was driving all day while I was at work. I called him every time I went to the loo… just to check up on him.

It’s good to have him back but he did ask that I give him a bit longer in the house before I start moaning…

Moi?!?

Never…..

Just keep it tidy and all will be fine.

😆

So I’m taking tonight off worrying about what to take to Milan.

You know me by now. I love to solo travel but it doesn’t come lightly… is that even English?!

I have to be in Edinburgh for a flight at 6am on Friday morning. That means a very early start from home….. it’s to be torrential rain overnight…. Or a hotel…. Very expensive. When you travel alone there is no one to discuss this with. No one to make the decision except for me. I’m so glad I’m meeting Melanie out there, as I don’t have to plan anything by myself when we’re there.

I’m overthinking it all. I don’t know how many times I’ve tried to check in… but can’t as I’m not paying for a seat. Ryanair say… well if you’ll pay for a seat we’ll let you check in. 😆 Naw!

I’ve checked the car park so many times.

I’ve thought about when to leave, so many times.

Still no real decision.

So tonight I’m relaxing with candles and crochet. Been a while since I’ve crocheted but I did it all night, last night and really enjoyed it.

It calms me.

Don’t worry I’m not a basket case of worry. I’m just anxious. Worrying about every eventuality.

Gran said we worry about the day we never saw., in my family. There’s a saying I should try to move on from. 😆

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️