I guess after 1,577 days it’s acceptable not to be able to come up with a title every now and then…
Let’s start with last night… we had a lovely, impromptu evening with Claire and Graeme, next door, around their fire pit.
We sat outside until 10pm. Check me, staying up beyond 10pm on a Sunday night… a school night 😆
Claire has the prettiest lights in the back garden and how lovely is that hydrangea bush?!?
It’s magical.
These light bulbs are almost invisible but light up the bushes so well. It was just a lovely atmosphere!
This is the gateway to our garden…. it’s enchanting…
And our garden was pitch black as we didn’t gave any lights on 😆 I had fairy light envy!!
So…. I got up at 5.40am this morning, to catch up on some of the housework, that I didn’t get done yesterday.
I had a great wee morning and felt great on the way to work.
Sat at my desk and, boom, anxiety….. on and off all day.
Major overthinking.
I honestly felt like I’d drunk a few cups of coffee.
Jittery.
I can’t think of any real reason for it.
We were busy.
Maybe I was worried that I’d drop a ball with a lot of customers coming and going.
I really don’t know…. But you can bet your life I spent most of the day second guessing and trying to question why?!
What on earth is wrong with you now?
Why me?
It goes on…..
I ended up breaking my 16 hour fast early, in case it was just hunger.
It helped a bit, but didn’t really put an end to it.
It’s been a lovely day since lunchtime. Ellison and I sat outside at lunch.
So I came home and have been driven ever since.
I’ve tried to do as much housework as 3 Border Collies and a a Belgian Malinois will allow, in advance of my friend Helen coming to stay on Thursday.
I can’t wait until she gets here and we can plan our days…. All dependent on the weather, of course.
I’ve had a really good evening and not sat down until the back of 8. It still seems warm outside which is lovely.
So all is calm.
When you suffer from anxiety…. Sorry…. I won’t speak for everyone but because I have suffered from anxiety in the past, I always have a concern if I feel off.
I want to know what caused it and why it’s happening. I can’t seem to let it be, as I assume it’s telling me something.
Sometimes I’d like to be a little less in tune with my every waking thought. 😆
So it’s going down as a good day.
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️
The Rambling Sloth 🦥 
I had a break through with my work anxiety today. I tried one of the techniques mentioned in my Talking therapy a while ago and it worked really well. The idea is to schedule a specific time for worrying and not to worry all the time. Every time I started to feel overwhelmed I reminded myself I was not worrying about anything until 6.30 pm, after I’d finished work. 5 or 6 times I started to worry and then pushed it back to the end of the day. By the end of the day I realised I had achieved so much and felt empowered rather than frazzled as I expected to. Will try again tomorrow. Definitely worth trying this technique if you haven’t done this before Xx
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I’ve done some similar techniques but not that one, thank you I will try it. It’s hard when you know you do it to yourself. I felt very triggered today by my old job and felt old personalities coming out.. people pleasing and I didn’t like it. Thanks again xx
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I was so cross with myself for worrying all weekend about work on and off when I was supposed to be relaxing and then worrying about how much I was worrying… It was ridiculous!! Hope you have a good day tomorrow Xx
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It is but I do it so often myself. I create panic where there is no need. I woke up this morning and throughly ugh…. Here we go again and I’ve tried to give myself a shake. I will worry a my 6.30pm tonight! Xx
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Good plan. Me too! 😊Xx
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It’s a trick I learned from a wise lady 😆😘🫶🏼
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