Where to start today….. safe to say I haven’t been the perfect model of calm, of staying in the present moment or abundant with gratitude today.

I have been the opposite of all of that but I’m not going to give those words power by writing them down.

Things affect you in life that you cannot change. Being angry and irritable and feeling sad does not change any of it. It just allows your ego to wallow in the huff…. The not fair… the why me…

I’ve been in that place on and off all day.

It’s been busy at work and the phone didn’t stop ringing this afternoon. That always helps… but it doesn’t change the ego ranting away in the back of your mind over dramatising every situation that I’m not happy with.

You are allowed to feel sad, but you should sit with it and listen to what it’s telling you. What can you do to change it. If you can make a change, you should do it and if you can’t you just have to allow the sadness time to pass.

Try to focus on the positive and instantly you feel lighter.

I put off writing this tonight as was so negative that I had nothing to say. Writing it out always helps me see it differently.

Anger usually reflects something that we see in others, that we would never do ourselves or doesn’t adhere to the way we live our lives. It can reflect something we don’t like about ourselves and is just misplaced. It’s not a nice emotion.

Life does not always go the way that we expect it to go. There are road works and road closures along the way. These all have to be navigated.

This is all very cryptic for me…. It’s meant to be but it’s really helping me.

We must continue to be grateful for all that we have…. Not to be upset about the things that we don’t have.

I’ve allowed myself to become bitter and twisted today and it’s all my own doing. My reaction to things that haven’t gone my way.

A toddler having a tantrum inside my head.

Well I’m shutting her up.

I’m really tired.

I have no energy.

That could be because I’m not eating well but it’s a vicious circle.

I made chopped tomatoes on toast. Just as I was about to eat it I spotted some mould on the bread…

I laughed as it summed up my day.

But it made me smile.

I’m going to get into bed, beside beautiful Khaleesi and read my book while Craig’s out at work.

K is off to the vet in the morning to get her bandage removed and let the wound start to heal. She could be in the cone of shame tomorrow night bless her.

Here she is right now… trying to catch a fly while she’s tied to the seat.

Yum she says….. 😂 joking… she wasn’t fast enough!

Her hair is slowing growing on her back leg too.

She’s a wee soul. I’ve slept with her since Thursday and she’s no bother through the night. We just don’t want to leave her on her own for that length of time. This was my view when the alarm went off.

Tomorrow is another day.

If things are weighing you down., you know that this will pass and you will get through it.

Just keep calm and know the peace will return.

I can feel it already.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

I woke at 5.36am. I don’t feel rested at all. As I write this, super early, at 10.33am, I’m heading back to bed for a few hours! Now that sounds like a plan.

I got Khaleesi up and out for a wee smooch around the garden before my run.

I fed her and gave her the antibiotics a bit earlier this morning as I’m out over her 7am feed.

I ran with Claire, Gillian and Lynsey this morning at 6.45am and jeez, this was tough one!

That said we ran further than we have done and I didn’t even remember to record it!

The girls did 6K and I was just shy of that. I reckon maybe about 5.5 or a bit less.

My head was definitely not in the right space this morning. I didn’t realise that until I got running.

The pace was faster too. My head tells me I’m exhausted, this is too hard, I can’t keep up, they’re way better than me.

It never stops as I run.

So guess what the result is?!? I have a nightmare of a run. I’m telling myself it’s awful all the way so it is awful all the way. I need to find a way of breaking that mental barrier.

It’s a beautiful morning, but cold, until we heat up.

My breathing is so laboured. I feel like I don’t get any air in but I’m blowing it all out like an Olympic champion 😂.

Claire tells me to take deep breaths in through my nose and a short sharp out through my mouth. It helps while I can manage it, then I’m huffing and puffing again.

All that aside… I ran further AND faster than I have and that’s what I need to be proud of.

I came in and fed the 3 Borders and took them straight out.

Somewhere, deep down, I find the strength to run a good bit of the way with them! Where does that come from?

When I got back, Craig was up and we sat outside for a coffee and let Khaleesi spend some time outdoors…. As soon as the sun went away, it was freezing!

Then the heavens opened! Back indoors, heating on…. This is crazy weather for June!

So I’ve had a shower to heat me up and I’m back in bed with Khaleesi and I’m going to read and sleep for a few hours.

This afternoon/evening, going out lifestyle is taking its toll but a nice wee nap will do me the power of good!

I did not nap…. Between dogs barking, dogs moving etc etc… anyway, at least I rested.

I’ve gone through every bit of clothing in my wardrobe…. It’s not geared for nights out anymore… I borrowed from Gayle and I’ve ended up in my dungarees.

It’s so hard to know what to wear in this weather. Gayle leant me some lovely black long sleeved blouses, when the sun is shining that felt too wintry, my flowery trousers to similar to what another girl is wearing.

Ah the stress 😂😂😂

I am comfy. That’s the main thing. Oh and I did get some lipstick on my top. Course I did…

I need to clear up the rest of my clothes up tomorrow!

I relaxed the minute I got in the car to pick the girls up. They are all so lovely and Elly had a mocktail can for me for the train.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

It’s 9pm and I am shattered!

Two nights in a row I have been out and about and not living my usual hermit lifestyle. That’s a whole lotta talk! AND…. I’m out tomorrow afternoon and evening too.

Check… me!

I will have to sit in a dark room all day Sunday to recuperate. 😂😂

So last night was lovely but really tough. I found the D-Day commemoration in Beith, really sad. Understandably so, obviously!

I hadn’t seen any of the tv coverage throughout the day and wasn’t expecting to feel just so emotional.

I went with Gayle and we arrived for 7pm. I had no idea what to expect or what to wear or blah blah blah blah blah….. yet we sat and listened to some lovely wartime songs, some upbeat and some very emotional.

Between each song one of the girls read out a wartime letter. They were all so good that that really acted out the letter as if they were the person writing it. I had to gulp back huge waves of emotion. It was really hard and I felt transported back to that time, imagining how scared everyone must have felt. The tears overflowed at one point as one man told his parents he was off to the front. Harrowing.

We then walked down to the cenotaph where they lit a beacon.

There was also a piper which always stirs my emotions.

Sadly the lovely lady who made these wartime dolls, Frances Oates, had passed away a few weeks ago and they did a lovely tribute to her. You may remember I posted these at Remembrance Day.

She was meant to light the beacon but her sister, brother in law and grandson did it instead. It was a very emotional moment.

Look at his face when it lit up. So moving.

So that was last night…. A very sad but poignant night.

Then I spent the night with this little lady… bless her. It was my turn to sleep over in her wee room.

I had the laziest of mornings. I lay in until after 8am.

I got lots of cuddles from all the dogs.

Caption this!!!

I got showered and headed into town to post a parcel I’d sold on Vinted and nipped into the little gift shop.

It’s beautiful as always….

Then back up for Border Collie walk x 3 at once!!

Look how yellow the fields are… full of buttercups.

They were such good girls today. I’m so glad I took them all out at once.

I came home and had lunch, read for a bit then got ready to go to our next door neighbour’s 18th birthday party.

We were there for 4pm.

This is her cake!!

I never took a single photo which is rubbish but saw lots of neighbours and had lots of good chat.

I’ll sleep tonight and we’re running at 6.45am! Who said this was going to be a quiet weekend?!?

Have a good one.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

We have such an easy life and have no idea what it must have been like back then. Absolutely terrifying. So many gave our lives so we can live ours now.

The rest of the blog seems so trivial compared to that…..

It’s definitely back to April weather! It’s so cold and windy but with sunshine and such heavy showers. Everyone is talking about our lack of sunshine so far this year!

My friend Evelyn came in to see Khaleesi, before crochet, last night, she brought some treats and got big cuddles.

Khaleesi was so happy to see her!

Crochet was good, the pub was really busy last night… 4 Hookers, 5 playing Bridge and the usual suspects. There was a lovely buzz about the place.

This was the sky while we were in! The yellow Jeep helped brighten it up. 😂

We got a quote at the start of the year for a short fence above our dry stane dyke in the back garden.

Queen Khaleesi has been known to find her way into next doors’ garden on occasion!

With everything going on, bad timing but of course the guys are coming to do the work now. It always needed doing but that was before Khaleesi’s operation bill. 🤦🏻‍♀️😂

They’ve done an amazing job.

It’s good that it’s done as when Khaleesi is fit she’ll be for the off…. And yet she’ll be contained.

Here she is now.

So nice got to dash. I’m picking Gayle up and we’re going to a commemoration of the D Day down in Beith.

Will tell you all about it tomorrow.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️

Craig was in charge of the Khaleesi pup today as I headed back to work .

It was a quick day as I did a stock check. I think I hate a stock check but I love a wee change from sitting at my desk. Ellison was listening to Radio 2 so I loved working to a wee tune for a change.

I got home from work and got Khaleesi cuddles outside in the sun. She’s so excited to see us when we come home.

The farmers are muck spreading just now…. Even sitting in my living room, writing this, I can still smell it. It’s everywhere!

I made a Planthood dinner tonight.

It was really lovely and I scoffed it down fast so that I could go for a walk with Claire.

We planned a big walk tonight, like we used to do in COVID times but I had to be back by 7pm to give Khaleesi her dinner and meds.

We left at 5.30pm…. Plenty of time or so you would think…. 😂😂

It was a lovely sunny evening.

We met 3 neighbours and had 3 good, separate chats… before we even got to the top of the road.

Where did Auntie Claire go?!? She had a parcel to drop off.

Look at the changing sky.. Unfortunately the blue was outgoing and the dark clouds incoming!

Loved the contrast against the yellow/orange trailer.

Here we are coming up to my favourite trees. It’s so beautiful but that muck spreading smell is pungent!!

So unfortunately we picked a night where the farmers were cutting silage…. We literally had to stop every 5 minutes to let a tractor go by… there were only 2 drivers but they just have driven past us 5 or 6 times each!!!

The dogs were stopped more than we walked! Then there were cars passing….

We finally got to the bridge and burn which was our planned destination! It took us an hour to get there and 40 minutes to get home.

Then we met another friend and another neighbour on the way home 😂

I tried to get photos of the dogs being so good as the terrifyingly huge tractors passed us but I was embarrassed that the drivers might wonder why I was taking pics…. Claire said don’t be daft, it’s not like you’ll see them again…. I replied with, yeah only another 100 times tonight.

To be fair, you had to be there.

I got the giggles!

I got home and fed Khaleesi (RULE BREAKER…. 10 minutes late!) and gave her her evening antibiotics. She was so pleased to see me.

“We” went out for the toilet and she was a good girl.

I also called mum as she’d rang while we were out too.

I’m shattered now but I’m getting big cuddles and yes there is a sloth doing yoga on my T-shirt, thanks to my friend Gemma!

Khaleesi wants us to turn out the lights… bless.

Still got the kitchen to tidy and the wheelie bin to put out but that will have to wait until Miss Khaleesi is allowed to move again, for now I am tied to the couch. Hardship.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️