I sat at work today thinking, jeez what on earth will I write about today?!?

It rained a lot. I was at work. I got my period. The End.

😂😂

There’s so much more to say… of course there is…

I started the day with some gusto. As it was a non hair wash day, I had lots of time to spare so I cleaned the kitchen, put on a washing and loaded the dishwasher.

We are being really lazy not doing this at night. I came down annoyed at the mess. By the time I left for work, all that needed doing was the clean dishes out the dishwasher needed put away.

The messy kitchen monster ran about all over the kitchen today at some point and I came home to do it all again. I have proudly, clearly communicated my desire for things to be left a bit tidier moving forward.

By the time I came home some mild stomach cramps had kicked in and I felt really irritable.

I’m angry at the weather for being so cold, wet and miserable again. Yesterday’s sunshine was so lovely. It really helps my mood. I feel like I am sitting in front of series after series on TV just now, I don’t want to do that but I also can’t not do that just now. I don’t drink, I’m trying to fast, I only do decaf and I’m pretty much veggie/vegan just now so there’s not much enjoyment in life… I need some escapism.

As soon as I write that I realise how dreadful that sounds. I get lots of enjoyment in life… I haven’t stopped this weekend. I have a cheek to think life is dull. I just mean that the day to day life is a bit monotonous at the moment.

My boss made a great point today… it’s still winter, it is still cold, all of that will change with the lighter nights and some sunshine.

I was excited to get my next Planthood food delivery….. which, of course, did not arrive.

Seems I have ordered for a monthly delivery and not weekly… I have virtually nothing to eat in the house but I’m not going back out. I have a real aversion to going out in the evenings these days. Don’t want to watch tv but don’t want to do anything else!!

So I made some cauliflower cheese with plant based spread and tofu. Who actually am I? Why am I doing this? Why can’t I eat meat? Soooo strange. I was angry at Planthood but it’s not their fault I can’t seem to work their app.

So I felt grumpy and sludgy… amazed that is actually a word…. I put my anorak on and took Bhruic and Freya out for a walk in the rain. I knew that would make me feel better!

What a difference the weather makes. Yesterday compared to today!

The pups did a lot of sniffing…. Honestly felt like they stopped at every blade of grass! It’s great mental stimulation for them though.

Very spooky, old tree.

We got a bit damp and soggy but I feel all the better for the fresh air. I’m so glad I did it.

One of the lovely ladies that I used to sea swim with has just published a book. How amazing is that?!

The sad, untimely passing of her husband, lead her to honour his memory by raising awareness and reducing the stigma of those struggling with. Their mental health and addiction.

She started working towards a swim challenge where she swam from Holy Isle to Lamlash on Arran. She completed this on 4th September 2021.

She’s such an inspiration writing a book about it too!

That’s all from me tonight. I’m off to sit with my grumpy assed emotions. 😂😂

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️