Another amazing sleep and I got up at 8am… I went to let the dogs out but ended up not going back up to bed like I had planned.

I’m so lucky that I can sleep. My head is in turmoil, it’s churning round and round. I can’t settle. Chaos in my soul indeed.

I decided to take Khaleesi and Freya out this morning. The mist cleared and this wonderful sun appeared. It was huge.

While it was cold there was a lovely warmth to it. We had a lovely walk.

The sun really helped calm my mind and helped me breathe.

It was really beautiful ☀️

The mist came back in again and it’s been a fairly meh day weather wise. Writing this makes me realise how lucky I am to have had such a nice walk this morning.

I wanted to go to Run 4 It in Glasgow, this morning as I really wanted some running trainers that would keep my feet dry.

I want to run more but without wet feet!

You run on a treadmill in here and they record your gait so it means I’d get shoes that “shouldn’t” hurt my knee.

The trainers I bought for the Fit Body Farm just seem to soak up the water on the road. I’m not charging straight into puddles but they are squelching by the end of the run.

So the shop assistant said there was no such thing as indoor or outdoor running shoes. She smiled and said if we run outside we just have to accept that our feet will get wet…. 😳 my mood makes me incensed at this… while I smile sweetly through gritted teeth. I try to tell her when I bought my existing trainers there we picked the indoor ones…. From the same shop…. but she’s having none of it…. 😆 Then she produces 2 pairs of water resistant trainers.

She says they were both good for my gait so I picked a pair of Nike that are khaki and maroon.

There are no prices in Run 4 It…. When I took them up to the till I freaked and then wanted to back out but couldn’t. I can barely decide what I want to eat for dinner let alone what trainers to buy. I did get them in the sale and got about £12 off… they are in the house and I will decide sometime when my head stops screaming at me. (Also turns out that Nike advertise them as waterproof…. Who’d a thunk it?!? 😂)

We then went to a place called Jojo Mac for lunch and had a veggie burger. Craig had a burger burger 😆 we haven’t been in Glasgow city centre for a long time!! It felt really strange and honestly, while the food was good, Glasgow was not actually that nice…. Sooo many people!!! I am definitely not a city person anymore, if I ever was.

We came home and I took Calaidh and Bhruic a walk while Craig make some enquiry calls.

I’m angry this afternoon….. my head won’t shut up, round and round blaming everything and everyone. And yet this…… is what I need to listen to.

I am creating all of this noise inside my head all by myself. The chaos is so loud, I just want to shake it all out.

As u say that I am very calm writing this which really helps. The calm is so welcome when it comes.

I know that this will pass…. I just have to sit with the discomfort until it does… without the wine to numb it.

I will still say that this is a reminder to make the most of the week ahead and try to be in the present moment as often as you can. do as u say not as I seem to be doing right now 😂😘

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️