I slept ok but woke with a thumping headache and was super tense. I’m fairly certain I’m doing this to myself. I’m still fighting something rather than relaxing into reality.

I felt surprisingly ok when I got up and got moving. The headache passed pretty quickly.

I tried to have a present moment shower but Anne McNerlin keeps popping up as it was her who told me about being present during your shower. It does make me laugh. 😆

I’ve felt ok today, a couple of wobbles, a bit of anxiety and some moments where I felt totally in control the anxiety was nothing like yesterday so I’m grateful for that. .

I know I’m over analysing everything. I’ve felt so low this week and I guess I worried about sinking back down the way. If I stop long enough to really focus. I know I am streets ahead of where I was. I don’t understand why I’ve felt so low. Think lots of people are the same just now.

So I’ve decided I need more exercise.

I met Gemma, from work, tonight down at Barassie beach and we did a 5K walk in the biting wind and light rain… don’t laugh at our selfie.

It was sooooo cold and I forgot to take my hat. It took us an hour but we walked into strong headwind on the way there. it was so much warmer when we turned back.

Gemma’s dog was bombing about on the beach having a blast.

Haha fashion oot the window!

Looking over to Troon harbour where the Arran ferries are sheltering from the next storm that’s coming.

Here’s our headlights as we left.

I’m really glad we did that. It would have been too easy to miss it tonight, the weather was pretty bad. I would never have done that by myself and it’s great to have company to exercise. I hope we can do it more. The beach is 11 minutes drive from my work. Can’t beat that.

So it’s my weekend now. I’m so looking forward to the time off after working all of last weekend. The weather is going to be pretty rough again but I’ll try to get out and about as much as I can. I know exercise helps my mood. I need to get back at it.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️