I had the best sleep.

I went up to bed last night at 8pm and went to sleep just after 9pm….Out for the count until 5am when I woke up to remember something I hadn’t ordered at work…. The day continued in much the same vein.

I have a dodgy tum which could be due to the introduction of a vegan meal yesterday… 😂 I have butterflies in my stomach … I don’t feel quite right.

There was a car right behind me most of the way to work… I was super anxious driving while he was behind me. I didn’t relax at all and made silly mistakes.

It didn’t stop there, I was super anxious all morning, breathless and panicky at one point. It was coming over me in waves. I felt really jittery. Like I’d drank a pot of coffee. I felt an impending sense of doom that everything was going to go wrong.

I’d seen this first thing and was determined to use it all day…… out the window at the first sign of nerves.

So yeah it’s honestly not been the best day. I texted Craig about it all and the anxiety did calm a bit after I’d put “pen to paper”. I realised how crazy it all sounded.

I’ve not been this anxious in a while. I’ve not been right for a few days now.

Anxiety always leads me to feeling worthless. It kicks me when I’m down.

We just had a hammer on the window to say a dog had been hit by a car outside and that it looked like Khaleei. My legs went to jelly, I started shaking….. Craig confirms it’s not Khaleesi as she’s there beside him, but it turns out to be a neighbours dog. I hug Khaleesi tight. They track down the neighbours dog and it’s thankfully ok.

Today I seem to be collecting things to worry about. Enjoying the drama that anxiety brings. Fighting it rather than letting it pass.

I know that it will pass.

I made a Butternut Squash Thai infused curry for dinner with brown rice.

Khaleesi is licking her lips. It most definitely is “not for puppies”. That’s my stock phrase!

So tomorrow is a new day.

I’m fine it’s just been an off day.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️