Ok so I’m not in a great headspace today and I’m so glad I took a day off work.

I’ve needed rest and peace today.

Last year I managed to work right through the 11 days, but I knew I needed a break today. It’s 1.20pm and I’m still in my jammies. It’s wild out there. It actually feels way more like a sick day than a day off but that’s exactly what I need.

I’m really tearful. It’s time of the month so that is the main reason for raging hormones but I feel like I have a wrecking ball inside my head, bashing everything that I am and everything that I have and everything that I do… desperate to run away and just travel the world. Let’s face it everyone wants to spend their whole life on holiday 🙋🏻‍♀️😂

I lay in bed until 9ish and found a really good article by The Mighty, ten songs to help on mental health days and boy did I cry through some of them. Others were uplifting…. It did help to listen to them.

I explained it all to Craig this morning and cleared my head a bit.

So….. we’ve booked some holidays, first off, a week in South Wales, in July, for us and the 4 puppers. It’s a cottage that allows 4 dogs… it’s really cute and has a hot tub.

There’s a review that says “holidays with 4 dogs is not always easy” and that spoke to me as they had a great time staying here! The dogs are secured in the garden which is great and welcomed into the cottage. We obviously will clean more than usual when you stay somewhere with 4 dogs so it will be in as good condition when we leave. I hope it will be good weather in July.

I’ve blown the dogs out of all proportion in my head and feel like they are the reason we can’t go anywhere or do anything. Actually, separately, I’m fine with them all, it’s just collectively I have anxiety that 4 dogs is too many to take anywhere. So I need to do a bit of work on that.

I have the fear leaving them for someone else too as it seems like a burden, so in my head it’s a no win situation. I’m not angry but my mind is causing the same effect, creating boiling water.

Craig is obviously more than capable of handling them all and so this seems the perfect place.

Then… check us….we booked our next trip to Iceland for 6th December…. So this year we are already have more holidays to look forward to, than we’ve had in a long time. It’s great when you book with love holidays, you can pay up in monthly instalments.

It’s 4pm now and I’ve made a Coconut Curry that I’ve had delivered from Green Chef.

I have a portion ready for lunch and one for dinner tomorrow. I’m keen to eat more healithy again and to try some vegan meals for a change. I’m not a massive fan of meat at times, so we’ll see how this goes and if it’s rotten, I’ll go straight back to the meat.

Green Chef give you the recipes and ingredients and you put it all together. I have 3 codes for your first box for free and £10 off the second and third box if anyone is interested.

I feel a bit better now. I’m glad I took the day.

I definitely need to take life less seriously at times. Note to self.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️