Oh well I suppose it’s ok to have the odd day when you feel sad after everything was going so well.

The call today from the garage….. the Warranty company will not cover the Beetle being towed to the garage, they will also not cover the parts that my garage has already bought but they will cover the labour.

I just fell flat when I heard that.

It’s not the end of the world.

My inner child threw her hands up in the air, made that “I told you so” face and I had a few wee tears…. In the back of the shop for goodness sake.

I told my garage to go ahead with the repair given that they had the parts and I just want my car back in time for next week.

My inner voice threw all of this at me:

• How did my repair garage not know that Warranty companies needed to recover the car to a garage?
• You’d think they’d have dealt with warranty before?
• When I spoke to the car selling garage on Wednesday, why did they not say call the Warranty company before you call anyone else?
• WHY DID YOU NOT STOP TO BREATHE AND READ THE WARRANTY BEFORE YOU DID ANYTHING ELSE?
• Because you’re you… you rush into everything, get all excited and don’t read the details
• Everyone else would have read the details

Then the repair garage said they’d already bought the parts…. The warranty won’t cover that as THEY want to buy the parts and send them out. My garage said that will take ages, won’t get the car back before Christmas most likely. So I say just go ahead.

• Why didn’t I just tell them to send the parts back and wait, would have saved money?
• Why did I rush in… in the huff and say just go ahead with the repair?
• Because I felt I’d lost the fight already so I just gave in.
• I don’t have the energy to fight something where they all tell me in a sad voice that really… I should have read the small print.

So yeah, already done this to death… the worst case scenario is that I need to pay for the recovery and the parts. It’s not the end of the world.

I just struggle when things seem so unfair.

Still not the end of the world.

I think my inner ego is just looking for an excuse to feel sad.

So despite that, we had a lovely day in the shop today. It’s super busy and festive.

Gayle always helps me sort my head out. Lots of chat with customers who have finished their Christmas shopping and those who say they’re not organised at all.

I made good progress last night. I wrapped most of the presents I have bought already. I ordered some things that I hadn’t got yet. I wrote a list of the people I still have to buy for. I write some Christmas cards. I was pleased that I finally made a start. It made me realise I didn’t have as much to do as I assumed. The overwhelming mountain in my head was now a short list.

So I have my feet up, next to the lovely Christmas tree and after writing this I don’t feel as sad as I did. My reactions make more sense to me.

It’s ok to be mad at stuff like that. It’s ok to be a bit sad. Sit with it, feel it, let it be and let us pass.

I’ll leave you with the lovely flowers I sent to Mum and Dad, who now both have COVID for the very first time. I’m so pleased with them…. The flowers, not mum and dad for having COVID obviously. I sent them with Bloom and Wild, who send the flowers by post. They were due on Saturday but arrived today.

Get well soon both of you 😘

Stay safe everyone ♥️🫶🏼♥️