Day 1256 a very productive but anxious day…. 😔🫶🏼

Ok so another morning blog rant to record the actual state I am in just now.

Oh my god this car insurance thing is the gift that keeps on giving…. 😔

I’ve been awake since 3am.

I’ve made a list of all the things I need to do to try and stop my head from buzzing. I have 3 precious days off and yet I don’t feel anywhere near as happy as I should, at that.

Number one priority is to get this car insurance debacle sorted once and for all.

I should have just given in and paid the double insurance 4 days ago but the injustice of it all is pushing me to every last ditch attempt. I do not want to give up my 20+ years no claims too easily. I want to try every angle.

I’ve been on the phone to car insurance every lunchtime this week except Thursday because I forgot. Having Khaleesi in work was a good distraction. 😂

I moved down to the spare room at 3am so I didn’t disturb Craig. I wrote my list, read a bit and seems I did get back to sleep at some point.

The red is awake time. I know that’s nothing compared to some people but it’s so infuriating when I know I am causing all of my own stress through my own anxiety. I am making all of this happen.

I called Esure st 8.04am. I was on the phone for 12 minutes…. Only to be told it’s a decision for the underwriters.

Call back at 10am.

I hoovered the whole house.

I called back at 10.04am.

3 min tired of security and waiting to be hung up on.

Esure hang up calls when they are too busy.

Do it online.

I can’t. It won’t let me. It needs authorised by the underwriter.

I need to keep calling back until I can get past the 3 minute mark and get in a queue.

I burst into tears. (Yeah again)

It’s so bloody infuriating.

So I’m sat here having a good cry, writing this and I do feel a bit better.

There is some inner child inside me, having a total hissy fit that I have to go through all this. My teeth are grinding.

Today I will pay the extra premium if this last ditch attempt fails. I won’t tell them that though, if I can ever get through.

So, dog walk time it is. I split them in Freya and Bhruic and leave Calaidh and Khaleesi to last.

It’s dry and mild. We have a lovely walk. It does help so much to be out in nature.

I then came back and took Calaidh And Khaleesi up the hill. Calaidh can be off lead for most of it and Khaleesi gets a shorter walk.

It’s not the easiest having two Calaidh/Khal’s. As Calaidh was off lead I always call her back and Khaleesi thinks I’m calling her. She comes bounding towards me when I’m wanting the other one. It makes me laugh.

Watching Calaidh in the distance.

Checking out the cows…. look at her wee right paw… that’s the sore one. She has a hope, skip and a jump every now and then. She’s a wee soul.

So when I came back I dialled the insurance again….. SOMEONE ANSWERED STRAIGHT AFTER THE 3 MINUTE BLURB!

I was on the phone for 54 minutes. 😳

Esure will not accept the 23 years no claims either.

So they quoted on 3 years and I paid it.

I was obviously on hold for a lot of those 54 minutes…. the hold music was “Wonderful Wold” and “Amazing Grace”…

🎼🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵

“I once was lost but now I’m found”

“… and I think to myself what a wonderful world”

🎼🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵

It’s enough to calm my mind and realise how far I’ve come. The world didn’t stop turning because I only have 3 years no claims bonus on my car insurance.

It’s was such a relief to finally stop fighting. I was never gonna win, I just had to try.

Craig called to say he was on his way home so I suggested Mocha Jak’s for lunch. I needed cheering up and when you don’t drink, there’s always cake and coffee.

We both agreed we didn’t need the cakes…. AFTER we’d eaten them. 😆 The Biscoff Rocky Road was pretty special.

Once we got back home I spent the afternoon ironing.

I NEVER iron clothes.

Except when I have holidays to pack for. 🙆🏻‍♀️

It’s a bit early to be ironing for Turkey 🇹🇷 but at least a fair bit of it is done. I just might be a creased mess when I’m there.

I’ve fed the dogs. Hung up washing and run the dishwasher.

I am shattered now and just sat down. I might never eat again after that Biscoff Rocky Road.

This made me chuckle 🤭

Hope you all have a great weekend!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️