My head is all over the place this morning. Everything is swirling around and I can’t make a decision to save myself.

I sleep like a log but get so irritated at waking up early and not being able to go back to sleep for thinking. I’ve been awake since before 5 again. Making no decisions just running things around in my head.

As I said yesterday, life is good for me just now, things are going well and I’m going with the flow yet I feel sucked into a vortex again these last few days.

I know it’s just the insurance debacle. It’s taken over my life for the last few days. I have lots going on just now that I don’t really want to have to deal with so my anxious head screws it all around. I have to say I’ve dealt with this all very well but I know I’m second guessing everything just now.

Still on the Covid & Flu vaccine…. I have decided I will get it but for months I’ve mulled over should I get it before or after my summer holidays… what if it makes me feel sick and ruins my breaks away. What if I don’t get it and then I catch covid and can’t go away. What if, what if…. I’m just going to get it.

The girl who’s buying my van isn’t coming to get it until the end of September… when I’m in Turkey. Still having the van is causing me a lot of anxiety as it’s still my responsibility. She’s actually going to be in West Lothian this weekend and I wanted to try and get the van to her, but that just adds more for me to think about. I’ll have to get a days insurance, Craig would have to drive over with me and it will take up at least 3 hours of our weekend when I have enough to be doing.

I have two holidays to pack for. I know that two holidays is a lot of fun. I’ve been mulling around for ages about what to take but I don’t actually want to start dealing with it.

I need to short circuit this otherwise I will second guess everything all day.

This morning I know it’s too much and I came to work early to sit in the car and write this down. Bet I cringe when I look back on it tonight.

Yup, cringed! But it is what it is.

I’ve been a bit over anxious with everything today. I’m still miles better than I have been in the past. My mind is just whirring with so many things and won’t settle.

I’ve made a few decisions and that’s helped out some of them to bed.

I’ve just been to meet the Crochet Hookers and had a good catch up.

Candles lit and comfies on. And try to relax.

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️