Day 1037 Fit Body Farm the return, food shop and the hookers 🧶

I made it!!!

It’s all about mindset. I got my gym bag ready last night, alarm set. Bed at 10 after 4 episodes of Happy Valley. That’s us finished the first season already!

I slept like a log and woke about 2 minutes before the 5am alarm. I felt rested. Fitbit says otherwise and says I was awake a lot… nope it felt like a great sleep to me.

I got out of bed no problem at all. I was ready.

It was great to be back. It was a quiet class but it was a good ease back in. I still worked hard.

It’s psychological but I know I feel worse when I’m not exercising. I have felt way better today. Way more switched on.

It was early sunrise when I left and I got some photos in the dark…. They look a lot lighter than it actually was.

Snowdrops woo hoo!!! And loads of them!

Love me a snowdrop!

So on to work and had a great day. Instead of fighting the work that needs doing, I feel there was some acceptance today.

I just got on with it. I didn’t try to stall it. I didn’t try to find loads of other, more important things to do.

I did a food shop in Home Bargains tonight….. who’d a thunk it?!?!? Rump steak for £2.79 and it’s a good steak 🥩. 2 chicken fillets for £2.29…. Amazing prizes and it didn’t look like poor quality. Highly recommend checking one out.

There is one thing I’ve learned today though…. I’ve identified a personality type that I do not respond well too. When people have a high level of expectation and demand that they get the thing that they want, when they want it. I think I’ve talked about this before….

I’ve always been a people pleaser so would never dream of laying down how it should be to suit myself. I find it very hard to react to this kind of personality. It feels entitled to me and I don’t respond well to it. So I’ve a bit of thinking to do on that.

My internal reactions are not pleasant. I feel an actual pain in my chest, I feel anger and clench my teeth. I have a very descriptive face and am sure there must be something that shows there…. Sneer maybe?!?!

I need to learn that this behaviour is not a slight on me. It’s not a dig at me. I think it has been in my past and that’s where the trigger is. Mrs overreaction!

Anyway, life is a big giant learning curve, isn’t it.

I’ve also seen this…… and this is the reason I don’t drink any more. I could have written it myself. Word for word.

I’m in with my Crochet Hookers. I was late but turns out we all were 😆 so I must dash and stop being rude.

There’s not enough hours in my day today!!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️