Day 871 a good day if a little bit cookie at times 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😂

We had a workout in the rain at the Fit Body Farm this morning! It was POURING!!

We did barbell weight training inside and running around the garden in the rain in between. It’s actually lovely running around in the rain once you get going… I know, I hear myself?!? What has actually happened to me??!

Craig had to wait until I’d had my shower to drop me off at Tartan HQ so that he had Abbie the camper van for work today. I drove Ailsa the Tartan Camper home tonight and Craig will pick me up from work tomorrow night. All very technical being this one van family malarkey.

I had a good day at work today. I felt happy, I felt calm and I feel like I am living in the moment. I’m not worried about what is going to happen next and I’m not worrying about what’s just happened. Just thinking about what I am doing here and now. This is what I’ve dreamed of.

The days seem to go on for ever, in a good way. I don’t feel rushed, I feel like I have plenty of time for everything. I’ve done a lot this week that I don’t usually do but that’s ok. I have the time.

I’m not sure how this has clicked with me but I’m very pleased that it has…. For now anyway.

Now don’t get me wrong, I made mistakes today, said a few stupid things, cut calls off by mistake and was genuinely a little bit cookie or crazy but I did laugh it off and try to rectify it all as quickly as I could. I also didn’t beat myself up for my mistakes like I used to do.

I did have a giggle this morning, I got a lovely message from Aileen about last night…. I wouldn’t normally share a personal message but you’ll see why….

It was soooooooooo good to see you too!!! The lasagna was fab. You were the perfect hostess. The puppers were cuddly. Your house is gorgeous. AND you look amazing!! You might not feel it all the time Jules but you look really chilled and happy – and it’s so good to see. Love to you & Craig xx

Isn’t that lovely of her. The part that made me laugh was it’s as if she knew exactly how I was feeling inside. She reads the blog to be fair, so she probably does…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️😆

Oh jeez is the lasagne going to be hot enough, did I dry it out when I heated it back up, should I have bought more garlic bread? That wasn’t really enough. What do I offer them to drink? Jeez I forgot to see if they needed a top up, am I talking too much, I feel like it’s all about me. Wish Freya would stop trying to herd everyone, the dogs are in the way, I’d better shut them in the kitchen so they don’t bother anyone. The house is a mess, that wall needs repainted, I should have dusted more, I wish I’d cleaned the fireplace, did I clean the sink in the bathroom? Why did I only put a tshirt on? Aileen looks amazing in her lovely top, I should have made more of an effort…. And I really did just ribbit away all night like a chatterbox, why did I say all that?!?!

I think it’s safe to say she knew fine well that all of that was going on in my head. It was sooooo lovely to see her and to get that message this morning. ♥️

Also found this photo of myself from 2 years ago when I was still off sick with anxiety and depression.

Versus me today.

It’s nice to appreciate my progress. I’m still nowhere near my old size 12 but hey… I’m way more content with my body image now than I have been for a long, long time.

So I’ve been to one of my neighbours tonight to submit the village hall accounts to the Office of the Scottish Charity Regulator. we weren’t able to do that tonight but the accounts are all officially signed off so we’re good to organise a AGM.

Now I’m getting ready for crochet and a good natter with the Crochet Hookers.

Another good day!

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️