Day 716 I bounced on a Space Hopper at 6.30am…. Who does that?!? 🤣🤣

So yeah…. Someone’s feeling better today….

I didn’t when I woke up and my mind started whirring at 4.45am, but the Fit Body Farm changed all that.

We did a fun challenge this morning and the highlight for me was racing on a Space Hopper! I mean who does that AND before 7am?!?!

It was so much fun. Exercising without even thinking you’re exercising! We did the following “exercises” for 40 seconds each…

• Slamming battle ropes
• Skipping (now that was so much fun! I even managed to cross over the skipping ropes!)
• Space Hopper bouncing!
• Walking across a balance beam
• Dribbling basketballs and shooting baskets
• Large water bottle carry
• Lifting 12kg wall ball over a wooden wall and then climbing over to the other side
• Walloping a tractor tyre with a sledgehammer

Three times in total!

I mean wow. I list that and it sounds so crazy but it’s so much fun. Mr A is 6ft 3 inches tall and was pretty huge on a wee Space Hopper!

The red one ♥️ was by way the faster than the blue one 💙…. Ok maybe that’s not actually true… He was on the blue one and I was flying along on the red one! 🤣🤣

I did slide right off the back of it on my first bounce! What a giggle! Soggy bottom on the soaking wet grass!

I’ve felt so much better today. I would almost say no anxiety.

Work is crazy busy just now. I know I always says it’s busy but this feels like another level. We have lots of customers with small jobs over the next few weeks so it’s taking lots of coordination…. What could possibly go wrong?! Hmmmm….. like everything!

I could double book them, have too much work for the worshop on any one day or not have ordered the correct parts for the jobs.

When you suffer from anxiety you have to do so much more work to feel under control. I have plans with dates and times to help me remember who’s in when. I keep revising it and checking it. I feel calm… so far. There are a lot more very busy days to come in the next week.

A lot of customers means a lot of chat. I may have to sit in silence for the whole weekend. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

But yeah, it felt good at work today. I didn’t actually switch the laptop on until 11.30am.

Amazing how bad I have felt over the last few days and today it’s just gone.

I always forget that other people can feel the same. I get angry at my nervousness, my fears, my insecurities and yet I’ve felt like this all of my life. I’ve just never been so in tune with it, so aware of it.

I used to cry the night before a big exam at school and then usually sailed through it. The more I think back over my life, the more I realise it’s always been a part of me. It’s who I am.

I need to stop fighting with it and accept on the bad days that it will pass. It’s helped me to plan better at work this week.

That’s very easy for me to say and way harder for me to do.

I’m meeting the Crochet Hookers tonight and looking forward to and chat and a giggle with the ladies.

Oh and am very proud to say that I now have 101 other bloggers following my ramblings! That means a lot!

Welcome to Happy Panda who sent me a lovely message today…. but I should say thank you again to anyone who takes the time to read this and sticks with me.

The darker days fade and the sun comes back out. It did today and I hope it stays around for a bit.

Stay safe everyone ☀️☀️☀️