I got up to go to work today. In my head I was just going to do it…. That walk to the bathroom told me I still wasn’t ready. Dizzy head, stomach cramps…. I got back into bed and slept for another few hours.
My neighbour Holly offered to walk the dogs but I suggested I could just walk with her and take Calaidh as it’s the only fresh air and exercise I’ve been getting, albeit at a snail’s pace.
It is very, very stormy up here. The good thing about walking with someone is that you don’t focus on every single step analysing how you feel. However, any chat was carried away on the wind for most of it. Calaidh had a blast running with Leo and Nacho off lead. She’s pretty much slept since! Forgot to get photos… too busy trying to stand up straight in that wind.
As we came back down the hill she said about taking Bhruic and Freya round the loop through Geilsland and Spiers school (no hills!) so we did that too. Just a leisurely walk and all cobwebs blown well and truly away.
I was back home by the back of 10 and back in bed by 11am. I was shattered.
I think it did me good though.
I had a good wee nap.
The stomach cramps are still there but they are bearable… uncomfortable but not painful. I also feel a bit like I’m waking out of a foggy slumber. My mind is clearing a bit. I’ve tried to drink lots of water in case I’m still dehydrated… well I’m sure I am. I’m having it hot and cold. 😋 nothing but the best. 😵💫🤣
I’ve had oat milk porridge for breakfast and a filled roll for lunch. I still don’t fancy eating anything much but I know it’s building strength back up. Everything I’m having is bland to be on the safe side.
I’m still shattered but hey… when am I not always shattered.
I’ve been out and started Abbie the Campervan. You can never be too sure where that one’s concerned. All went well 👍🏼. I didn’t drive anywhere but if she starts she’ll drive. I have that much faith in her 🥴🤣
So yeah… I am terrified to admit it but I think that I might just be feeling a wee bit more human again. Craig is too. He has decided he’s no longer keen to try Vegetarian food for a while since our last meal (chickpea & black bean curry) is still going to be forever blamed for the onslaught that ensued. 🥴🤣
So February 1st brings memories of 1992 when my then boyfriend was killed in a car accident outside Peterhead on his way to visit me. Such a defining moment in my life and that was 20 years ago tonight.
To be fair that feels like someone else’s story but it’s my first real dice with death and made me realise just how fragile and precious life is.
I’ve said “drive carefully” to Craig since I’ve met him. That’s very important to me.
I keep seeing posts like the one above. I said it last night… telling me to live life to the full. I am attracting tv shows about travel, reigniting the spark to see every inch of this amazing world that we live in. While avoiding people of course…. The new me doesn’t do lots of people. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️
Meanwhile back in my current world I’ve had a shower, detangled the dreadlocks, moisturised lots of super dry skin. My hands are like sandpaper in the shower. Dry from the inside.
I hope that this is the end of the sick talk. Thanks for sticking with me. Who knows what the next drama might be but for now I’m in clean jammies, my work clothes are ready for my pending return all going well tonight and I’m wrapped up on the couch watching Dirty Dancing.
“Nobody puts Baby in the corner”
And just like that… I burp and get little bit sick in my mouth. 🤦🏻♀️
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️