Well I slept the sleep of kings…. I don’t even know what that means but it sounds dramatic. 🤣🤣 I was out for the count until 9am! Was in one of those really deep sleeps you don’t ever want to wake up from. That’s a whole lot of sleep I’ve had this weekend. I’m trying not to have a nap today otherwise I’ll want one tomorrow too. 🤣🤣
I knew my head wasn’t good again. It felt better just to keep on sleeping. As least then I can try to control the chatter. It’s been incessant again all day today.
I feel really sad. The tears are never far away and honestly there is no reason that I can put my finger on. My head is calm now but it’s questioned my every waking move today.
I know that I do this to myself and no have all the tools to get me out of it yet sometimes I just really struggle to move on from it.
I drove to Largs to finally get my glasses tightened. They’ve been hanging off my nose for months!
Now in all the time I’ve visited Largs I have NEVER noticed this wall was a Viking ship.
One of our neighbours posted photos a while back with her kids on it!! Who knew?!?! I hunted it out today…. 🤣
I went into the pound shop to look for red wool as the Crochet Hookers are aiming to crochet poppies for Remembrance Day this year…. This bucket made me laugh.
I stopped for a Coconut Milk Latte and Vegan Breakfast in Costa Coffee. I’m not even feeling like eating meat just now either.
I guess looking back I didn’t really appreciate being in Largs. I didn’t relax like I usually do. I felt uncomfortable as if everyone was watching me. Abbie the campervan felt huge. Where would I park? (The usual place) I had my new hiking boots on… they felt huge, I questioned whether I should be driving in them…. (course I could) just a tiny wee snippet of some of the things going on in my mind.
I headed for Morrisons for a food shop. (Never been to this shop, can’t find anything, should have gone to one you know)
I tried not to buy meat and just wittered away to myself all the way round. Stupid idea trying not to eat meat. How would I get protein? What would I eat? Craig would take one look and wonder where all the real food was (he didn’t).
So I decided to head back home as I was too… nervous (?!?!?!) to drive down to Portencross Beach for some photos…..
Had a wee play with the dogs in the garden when I got back.
I decided to take Calaidh for a walk as I couldn’t cope with all 3 dogs at once. (I’m useless don’t you know…)
Sunshine over Gateside.
It’s a beautiful day today. I try to breathe in the fresh air. Appreciate the beauty.
It’s amazing the way the light changes in the winter sun. Bright with the sun behind me and dark when you take photos into the sun.
I may or may not have given the pups some treats when I got home. Safe to say they were all up for it!
So that was my weekend. I’ve had a nice big rest again… but my overthinking has been out of control. I feel nervous, jittery, like I’m waiting for the worst to happen.
I have Kinesiology on Tuesday I think (I hope) so maybe get to the root cause of it all. I usually write this and have some eureka moment but not this weekend.
I’m looking forward to some exercise tomorrow morning back at FBF. I know that will help.
So yeah… Sunday night again.
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️