Day 641 Happy Hogmanay 2021 🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔🔔

Well here we are again. Another year done. Can anyone else believe we are headed into 2022?!?!

I remember freaking out about Hogmanay 2000 and thinking all computers would shut down and planes would drop from the sky…. That’s 22 years ago?!? No way…..

It was not the best nights sleep in the world… if I’m honest. First of all…. Too hot. 🥵 go figure. Secondly, maybe the van at a bit of an angle so felt like I was rolling sideways. Thirdly, 5 of us in a van….. kinda says it all!!

Lovely breakfast and then dog walk. The campsite has a one way, mile round walk, so you don’t bump into other dogs… they think of everything.

I took Freya a bit further… trying to get steps up as I’m gutted we had to miss FBF this morning. Should say here that I’m struggling to walk from Wednesdays class…. 😆

So….. I’m writing this at 12.30pm as so that I can relax and enjoy the rest of the day. We have friends arriving this afternoon and I will of course, need a nap. Haven’t had one in like two whole days?!?!?! How will I cope back at work??

First things first…..

It’s still not always easy but it’s 100% the best thing I have ever done. Taken back control of my life.

139 days without anti-depressants. This still blows my mind. I never thought I would see this day. I have to sit with that thought for a while as that’s still huge. After 25-30 years of daily medication and the last 15 years or so with a whole lotta booze I’m now facing everything head on.

This next one will be controversial but hey….

Without all of that there was nowhere to hide, nowhere to get away from it all…. Except maybe through food. Now I’ve taken the next step to try to control that too.

I have changed so much in 2021. At the start of the year I was reluctantly making dog behavioural calls. Plucking up the courage to call each enquiry I was given. Some days were hard… other days it came naturally.

These days most things come naturally to me. I am so grateful for that. ♥️♥️♥️

I’m now gainfully employed again as Tartan Campers gave me a great opportunity and still offered it when I told them I was worried I wouldn’t get an afternoon sleep…. (I mean they really should have run a mile!) I have the Fit Body Farm 3 times a week and was so proud to win transformation of the year.

I still have my moments when anxiety blows up in my face (yesterday…..) but I know why, I understand my triggers. I try to plan around them and the lovely Shelagh helps me manage it all through health kinesiology.

I have a wonderful network of friends and family who support me and look out for me. They always say the right things at the right time. 💜

Craig has stood by me through all of this and we’ve grown together learning as we go. We can laugh at some of it now. (Not so much yesterday…🤷🏻‍♀️🤣)

And…. I have 641 days of The Rambling Sloth under my belt. I truly the believe the blog has helped me understand all of this. Make some sense of the over reactions, help me understand the triggers.

Thanks to everyone who reads, comments, sends or tags me in content.

It means the world to me. ♥️💜

Happy 2022 to you all. ♥️

Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️