Day 641 Happy Hogmanay 2021 ๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””๐Ÿ””

Well here we are again. Another year done. Can anyone else believe we are headed into 2022?!?!

I remember freaking out about Hogmanay 2000 and thinking all computers would shut down and planes would drop from the skyโ€ฆ. Thatโ€™s 22 years ago?!? No wayโ€ฆ..

It was not the best nights sleep in the worldโ€ฆ if Iโ€™m honest. First of allโ€ฆ. Too hot. ๐Ÿฅต go figure. Secondly, maybe the van at a bit of an angle so felt like I was rolling sideways. Thirdly, 5 of us in a vanโ€ฆ.. kinda says it all!!

Thatโ€™s a whole lotta awake but to be fair a whole lotta asleep too!

Lovely breakfast and then dog walk. The campsite has a one way, mile round walk, so you donโ€™t bump into other dogsโ€ฆ they think of everything.

I took Freya a bit furtherโ€ฆ trying to get steps up as Iโ€™m gutted we had to miss FBF this morning. Should say here that Iโ€™m struggling to walk from Wednesdays classโ€ฆ. ๐Ÿ˜†

The mist lying in the valley
The sun is coming out! Rainbow ๐ŸŒˆ
Big sun!
Those eyes ๐Ÿ‘€

Soโ€ฆ.. Iโ€™m writing this at 12.30pm as so that I can relax and enjoy the rest of the day. We have friends arriving this afternoon and I will of course, need a nap. Havenโ€™t had one in like two whole days?!?!?! How will I cope back at work??

First things firstโ€ฆ..

Itโ€™s still not always easy but itโ€™s 100% the best thing I have ever done. Taken back control of my life.

139 days without anti-depressants. This still blows my mind. I never thought I would see this day. I have to sit with that thought for a while as thatโ€™s still huge. After 25-30 years of daily medication and the last 15 years or so with a whole lotta booze Iโ€™m now facing everything head on.

This next one will be controversial but heyโ€ฆ.

This wonโ€™t be for everyone but Iโ€™ve change a lot in the last 3 years.

Without all of that there was nowhere to hide, nowhere to get away from it allโ€ฆ. Except maybe through food. Now Iโ€™ve taken the next step to try to control that too.

I have changed so much in 2021. At the start of the year I was reluctantly making dog behavioural calls. Plucking up the courage to call each enquiry I was given. Some days were hardโ€ฆ other days it came naturally.

These days most things come naturally to me. I am so grateful for that. โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

Iโ€™m now gainfully employed again as Tartan Campers gave me a great opportunity and still offered it when I told them I was worried I wouldnโ€™t get an afternoon sleepโ€ฆ. (I mean they really should have run a mile!) I have the Fit Body Farm 3 times a week and was so proud to win transformation of the year.

I still have my moments when anxiety blows up in my face (yesterdayโ€ฆ..) but I know why, I understand my triggers. I try to plan around them and the lovely Shelagh helps me manage it all through health kinesiology.

I have a wonderful network of friends and family who support me and look out for me. They always say the right things at the right time. ๐Ÿ’œ

Craig has stood by me through all of this and weโ€™ve grown together learning as we go. We can laugh at some of it now. (Not so much yesterdayโ€ฆ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿคฃ)

Andโ€ฆ. I have 641 days of The Rambling Sloth under my belt. I truly the believe the blog has helped me understand all of this. Make some sense of the over reactions, help me understand the triggers.

Thanks to everyone who reads, comments, sends or tags me in content.

It means the world to me. โ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ’œ

Love this ๐Ÿ’•

Happy 2022 to you all. โ™ฅ๏ธ

Stay safe everyone โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ

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    1. Awwwww thank you so much for being there for me. Honestly June youโ€™ve had the right words from the start, thanks for everything xxxxxxx

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  1. Congrats Julie on 3 years!! That’s an amazing feat!! I agree with that quote, ppl compliment each other on their drinking abilities way too much and normalize consumption… But it’s sitting with your feelings instead of drinking it that I think is more admirable!!! ๐ŸŽ‰๐ŸŽŠ Happy new year!!

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