Day 578 torrential rain and a mega nana nap!! 🥱😴🛌💤

Well we got to the Fit Body Farm this morning without getting soaked. It was unseasonably mild. I had two jackets on and both came off pretty quickly. It was really warm when we started working out.

The floodlights make everything look stunning in the dark.

I was buzzing after it. Endorphins were a’pumping!

As we left the rain started and by the time I went out with the dogs it was pretty wet!

I didn’t take any photos on the dog walk as it was dark and pouring with rain. I took Bhruic and Freya out first… as buzzing as I was I just didn’t want to handle all 3 at once. I came back totally drookit and got Calaidh and headed up the hill with her. I was so soaked when I got back to eat breakfast my hair was dripping down my neck!!! What was more funny was the fright it gave me every time it dripped… I mean come on?!?

So I headed up to Braehead Shopping Centre in Glasgow today as I had a ring that was being repaired and it was ready for collection.

One of the wee diamonds had fallen out and it had been lying about for ages. it cost a lot for a wee diamond but hey at least I can get the use of it….. when I lose a bit of weight and it fits on the figure it’s meant to…. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

I had a wee wander round the shops but my heart wasn’t in it. When I say that it sounds negative but I actually mean it in a positive way.

It’s nice to have a wander round and appreciate things but you also realise you don’t have to HAVE everything. You can appreciate nice things but you don’t need to own them all. I’m one for comfort shopping and today I realised I didn’t need to do it. The things I picked up to buy, I put it back and felt really good doing it.

I decided to treat myself to a Starbucks. I sat and watched everyone either talk on the phone, look on their phone, FaceTime in the middle of a crowded coffee shop. They were all rushing around and not one person was just sitting enjoying the moment of peace, drinking a coffee. (Btw still on the decaf. It’s going well!)

I stoped watched them and savoured my veggie New York Deli style sandwich and coconut milk latte. I tried to eat it mindfully.

I think I’m turning into a total weirdo. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🥴🤣

I’ve been listening to so many different podcasts recently that focus on the present. Appreciating the present moment as the past is only an memory and the future hasn’t happened yet.

Eckhart Tolle is really speaking to me just now. The podcast I listened to today was the story of his life.

He said “you need suffering for you to come to a point of realisation that you do not need to suffer anymore”. He says that our suffering is all our own making (which I know but it’s hard to stop) and as soon as we choose to stop suffering we will learn to live in the present moment and be at peace with that.

So after coffee I chose to come home and get into bed. I listened to a “sound bath” on YouTube which my friend in Canada sent me. Wow. It was amazing. I lay there for 45 minutes maybe in and out of consciousness, I’m not sure. At 2pm I switched it off and slept like a log until 3.30pm! Out for the count.

It took a while to wake up from.

Craig came home and we made healthy burgers and wedges for dinner which was lovely then started to get ready for the pub Halloween party.

Now I’m not a fan of Halloween 🎃 I’m not sure why, I never have been. I have a religious background and it never seemed to sit right with that but it’s more than that…. It’s my quiet anxiety that doesn’t like to be out after dark and doesn’t like the pressure to have to “party” 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣 let alone put a costume on for it.

Invite me out to brunch or lunch and I’ll be the best but evenings… not so much. I’ve always been like this I’ve just never been able to admit it.

So I sit here right now “dressed up” as a cowgirl 🤠 kind of… reluctantly invested in the night. There are no photos…. Yet… there may be some tomorrow. We’ll see 🎃👻🤠🥴

I know I’ll have a good night but anxiety makes me feel uncomfortable even walking in dressed up not really dressed up. Aaaaarrrggghhhhhhhh!!

So I’ll leave it here tonight and go… party 🎉

And you know the best of it is I’ll probably have a great time and wonder what all the fuss was about!

Stay safe everyone 🎃👻🤠