Honestly it’s so tiring battling the constant fight with anxiety. I slept like a log… out for the count until 5.20am.
When I woke up I realised I was really tense. My jaw was clenched and my neck solid and my head was thumping.
I took some paracetamol but they never touched the sides. Tension. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt like tension as bad as this. Those antidepressants must have numbed everything.
I know I need to eat better, get back to exercise and look after myself a bit better and all of that will help.
So today’s been tough. There’s nothing bad happening, nothing I shouldn’t be able to handle with my eyes closed, just a constant welling of anxiety at things happening throughout the day.
Yet…. every time I have talked myself out of it and been proud of the way I’ve dealt with it.
At lunch I did a 5 minute meditation to calm anxiety. That helped a bit too. Just taking time out to breathe.
I know how ridiculous this all sounds. I hear myself. I know you may read this and think jeez…. just chill out. Calm down. Relax. There’s nothing to worry about. Chillax. 🤣
I am trying…. Every single minute of today I had to work at it.
Yeah maybe I should just keep some of this noise to myself. 🤦🏻♀️🤷🏻♀️🤣
When I got home from work I nipped into Claire’s for Cole Kitten Cuddles.
Look at how cute he is!! He’s so teeny.
So I’ve finished Grace and Frankie on Netflix now and am looking for a new show…. I’ve started watching Suits as I write this. There are 9 seasons.
I could be some time…. 🤣🤣
This too shall pass.
Just need it to bloody hurry up.
Stay safe everyone ♥️💜🧡