Day 561 fighting anxiety all day but winning 🥇

Honestly it’s so tiring battling the constant fight with anxiety. I slept like a log… out for the count until 5.20am.

When I woke up I realised I was really tense. My jaw was clenched and my neck solid and my head was thumping.

I took some paracetamol but they never touched the sides. Tension. It’s been a long time since I’ve felt like tension as bad as this. Those antidepressants must have numbed everything.

I know I need to eat better, get back to exercise and look after myself a bit better and all of that will help.

So today’s been tough. There’s nothing bad happening, nothing I shouldn’t be able to handle with my eyes closed, just a constant welling of anxiety at things happening throughout the day.

Yet…. every time I have talked myself out of it and been proud of the way I’ve dealt with it.

At lunch I did a 5 minute meditation to calm anxiety. That helped a bit too. Just taking time out to breathe.

I know how ridiculous this all sounds. I hear myself. I know you may read this and think jeez…. just chill out. Calm down. Relax. There’s nothing to worry about. Chillax. 🤣

I am trying…. Every single minute of today I had to work at it.