Day 554 working and exploring anxiety 🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤣

Jeeeeez I am soooooo tired. It’s that tiredness where you drag your knuckles around on the ground behind you and just moan about all the time about being tired. I am so tired I could hardly be bothered driving home. I’m too tired to put the bin bag out, funny how that’s the first thing that springs to mind.

So I’m home from work and jumped into bed to write this. Ahhhh that’s better.

Yesterday’s blog fell on deaf ears given the FB outage for the evening. Just as well as it was one of those…. I’m tired, I’ve been busy and I haven’t done anything exciting. 🤣🤣sounds just like today to be honest!

I’ve got loads of motivational things to share though which will help boost my mood just by looking at them!

My anxiety is really high at the moment. I’m chattering away to myself in my head all the time. It’s exhausting. I wake up in the early morning and start thinking and it doesn’t stop until I write the blog at night.

I tried some meditation last night to help me get to sleep and I honestly “chattered” all the way through it. There’s a bubbling under the surface. It’s like a breathlessness. Hard to describe. Its a anxiety that I just can’t seem to calm down. It’s been there since Sunday night.

So yeah everything above. I still doubt myself. So much. Over everything.

Yep that’s me hit the nail on the head. The tears are burning in ku eyes as I write this.

I’m so scared I let everyone down.

That’s what anxiety does. It tells you that you’re not good enough. It tells you that you’re gonna fail. That you can’t do anything right. That it’s only a matter of time before I let everyone down.

I know that I’m better than that but somehow wallowing in the anxiety is easier than moving on from it.