Nicola Sturgeon, Scottish First Minister

Dramatic headlines as “Scotland ‘plunged’ into national lockdown from midnight”. It’s hardly a shock. We all knew this was coming and it’s 100% necessary due tot the speed with which this new variant is spreading.

We might not like it but personally we’ve been living like we’re in lockdown since we went into level 4 anyway so it’s not that different for us. I wish I’d gone out a wee bit more now but it is what it is.

Sums up the need for a nationwide lockdown

No funeral wakes allowed and only 5 people at a wedding. Only one person from two households can meet outside until the end of January.

In other more normal news I was “back to work” today. I had 3 Pawsitive Solutions calls to make today and I’m not gonna lie…. my confidence had all but disappeared over the holidays. I was breathless, nervous, felt sick…. went down to talk to Craig as he can calm me down and I burst into tears. Much bottom lip wobbling….. those of you who know me have ALL seen it.

I’m angry at myself as I KNOW I can do this. I have walked into Senior Management meetings with very important customers and held the room and not batted an eyelid (is that even English?) you know what I mean.

My first two calls were waffled…. the third back to my old self and booked it.

Anxiety is a dreadful, dreadful thing that robs you of so much. It lies to me all the time and I know that. I just get caught up in it and can’t see it until I’m out. But hey… it is what it is and every day is a learning curve (despite the fact I am so DONE with learning curves…)

That actually made me laugh. I’m glad I can laugh at my own jokes 🤣

So Craig has been very busy today and taken the Christmas decs down, put the crazy, wonky Christmas tree outside, gutted his office and tidied the kitchen, oh and walked the dogs so I have nothing else to think about today.

I had a 2 hour nap on the couch yesterday after I put the blog out and didn’t get out of bed until 10am this morning. I’ve shut down the rambling in my head but it’s replaced with the need of sleep. Which is quite nice actually.

I used to get a maximum of 6 or 7 hours sleep when i was employed. Now my average is about 9-10 hours….. that’s not bad going!