Have read a few things recently that have got me thinking about Christmas approaching. Our first Christmas with this random virus that’s changed our world.
Now I’ve said it before but I’ll say it again…. Christmas lost its sparkle for me a good while back and it’s been something that I just had to get through for a good few years. That’s not that it wasn’t a lovely day but the thoughts inside my head were very negative and ate away at me while I smiled on the outside. Yet this year I am so much more relaxed knowing that I have no pressure on me to do things that I don’t want to do. As I write that, I appreciate how sad that might sound to some but it’s just where I am at the moment. The meds I’m on for depression stop the very negative thoughts but they also numb excitement for me and these days I can kinda take or leave anything. This year I have no pressure other than to buy gifts for family and friends and write cards to people to send a wee minding from our house to theirs and visit those nearest and dearest.
How would I have felt before? When I lived for the rat race and Christmas nights out were planned months in advance and we were counting down the days until time off work. How would I feel if that had been taken away from me by a virus?!?!? I have just realised how utterly sad and depressing this must feel to have had “normality” put on hold indefinitely.
I don’t know where I’m going with this but it’s just something that’s been mulling round in my head today.
Love this Christmas cushion too. Spotted it in a charity shop in Auchterarder last year. It was the “A VERY” that drew me too it!!!!
So it’s early and I’m going to put this out today as I’m tired. We have takeaway from the Gateside Inn tonight which is lovely. Craigs been back at work today and is feeling better. He’ll be knackered when he gets in.
I might just coorie in and have a nap.
Stay safe everyone ♥️♥️♥️