So yeah today my Craigie turns 45. We had a lovely wee night in the pub yesterday and today is just a lovely day together to see where it takes us.
Birthday boy was wide awake at 7.20 so we got up and had coffee while he opened I’m his mountain of pressies!
So, a wee bit about Craig….
We met in summer of 2007 and we just knew. You know that way that you know. We’d been together 10 days and we used to say we wished we could say it’s been 10 years as we knew we would be together. I’d been married before and Craig was everything I had on my wish list for a man. He is kind, caring, loving and I could leave him in a room with strangers and not have to worry about him as he can chat to anyone.
My struggle with mental health had been bubbling under the surface for a very long time but didn’t finally break me until Sept 2018 (told you I’d get back to me eventually…) the nature of my job meant I built a defensive wall around me, everything said to me was a criticism and I blasted back in return with a offence. Ok I still do sometimes but I’m learning to change that behaviour. I never listened to his advice as I saw him as an extension of myself and I was worthless so his advice must be too. I guess I tried to push him away as I always felt I didn’t love myself therefore how could he love me? So many special events in our lives are marred by my reactions to “how much did that cost?!?”
But he stood by me. All the way. He’s very supportive of my not drinking. Lockdown has brought us closer together and we’ve been really lucky to have that time to spend with each other. I’ve definitely learned to communicate better over the last few years and Craig tries not to get a parcel a day from Amazon or Jeepey so all is good. 😬😆
We said 2020 would be our year and in a very different way than we expected, it actually is.
So we have had the loveliest lazy afternoon. Craig has got his rear view mirror camera fixed in the Jeep and has been playing with some of his birthday toys….. and I have gone to get his birthday tea after a 2 hour nap with the pups!
So feet up and fire and candles on watching Yellowstone on tv…. a regular lockdown evening after a really nice relaxing day!
Stay safe everyone ❤️💜🧡